Midnight Rain -- Chapter 1
© by Holly Lisle
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Phoebe Rain sat with her back to the bar that divided the kitchen from
the dining room, watching the first traces of pink creeping across the
Florida sky. She shuffled the tarot cards on the table in front of her,
and shifted on the kitchen chair. Her right knee was hurting again, but
she didn't dare get up to stretch. Her call volume had been steady all
night – as soon as she moved away from the table, she knew the phone
would ring. Out west, where it was still dark and the insomniacs were
pacing the floors, people were still looking for psychic comfort to get
them through the night.
She smiled sadly at that. Sometimes she wished she, too, could have
a little companionship, a little comfort, in the lonely hours before dawn.
But she wouldn't consider paying Psychic Sisters' Network prices for it.
So she straightened her right leg the way the physical therapist had
taught her, concentrating on contracting the muscles as hard as she could,
then relaxing them completely. Fire lanced out from the joint as she forced
it to do what she wanted, burning down into the calf muscle and up into
the thigh. She tightened the muscles again, gritting her teeth against
the pain, and when it became too intense to tolerate, relaxed. One more
time – then the phone rang, and she grabbed her pen and depressed
the headset switch on the phone, and lowered her foot to the floor.
" Fifty-five . . . minute . . . yes . . . club," a recorded
voice said as she wrote down the time. 5:57 AM. She glanced at the flowchart
again, noting the script she had to follow, and said, "Thank you
for calling Psychic Sisters Network. My name is Ariel, and my extension
number is 723884. May I have your name, please?"
A nervous-sounding woman said, "Clarise."
Phoebe wrote down the name. "Clarise, I need your date of birth."
The woman sounded older than eighteen. The birthdate she gave would have
made her late thirty-something.
" Okay, Clarise," Phoebe said, scooping up the tarot cards.
She shuffled the round deck and cut the cards with her left hand while
she said, "I read tarot, and what I would like for you to do is focus
on the question or questions that you wish to have answered. While you're
doing that, I'm going to concentrate on you and begin a general reading
for you. Is that all right?"
" Yes," that timid voice said.
" Fine." Phoebe put a card on the table. "The first card
in the reading is the Significator, which tells us who you are right now.
The card that comes up for you is the Hierophant at about one o'clock.
This card says that you are under oppression in some way – that
some person or some organization is telling you how you should think,
how you should act, what you should believe . . . ." Phoebe paused,
then asked, "Does that sound about right?"
" I . . . yes." That soft, scared voice. "Yes. About
right."
Phoebe put another card down. "The next card is the Three of Swords,
straight up. This card refers to your Atmosphere – that is, to what's
going on with you right now – and it indicates a disagreement. It
can either be an argument you're having inside your mind, where part of
you wants to do one thing and the other part wants to do something else,
or it can be an actual physical argument with other people. Because it
comes up in the upright position, I read this struggle as being very painful
for you."
" Painful . . . ." Clarise said thoughtfully. "Yes."
And then, under her breath, so that if the phone connection hadn't been
so clear, Phoebe wouldn't have heard the words at all, "You should
see the bruises."
Phoebe's stomach knotted.
A picture flashed in front of her eyes then, as if she were looking
at a movie screen. This call wasn't some cheerful girl wanting to know
the sex of her unborn baby, or whether she ought to take that new job
offer. In Phoebe's mind, Clarise became suddenly and terribly real: pale,
about thirty pounds overweight, her lank brown hair pulled back into a
ponytail, fly-away tendrils brushing the corners of her mouth. Hunched
over her telephone, speaking in a soft voice not because it was her natural
voice, but because she had grown accustomed to listening for the sound
of footsteps behind her. Something in the back of Phoebe's mind said that
Clarise lived in a nice house – in a nice neighborhood. And that
the people who knew her didn't know about the private hell that lay behind
her go-to-Publix dress and her Taurus station wagon and her brief appearances
at parent-teacher conferences and the Presbyterian church on holiday Sundays.
Clarise wanted comfort, wanted someone to talk to – and she sought
it from a complete stranger at a four-dollar-a-minute psychic hotline
because the only kindness that hadn't come back to haunt her had come
from strangers.
Phoebe kept putting the cards on the table, reading their meanings by
habit, while most of her attention focused on trying to come up with something
genuinely useful to tell Clarise. She wanted to be able to say "Everything
in your life is going to turn out great," but the cards were falling
ugly. In the Recent Past, the Ten of Swords reversed – wanting to
die rather than have what had happened to her before happen to her again,
and not being able to die, even though the horrors had returned. Phoebe
studied the cards for a moment, noticing that there were two Daughters
and a Son in the layout.
" The problem is the kids, isn't it?" she said. "You
can't take them; he has money and power and position in your town, and
. . . you don't."
A soft gasp. "Yes."
" And you can't leave them; they're your children."
A sniffle. A muffled sob. "I have to do something. He's good to
them as long as he has . . . me . . . to take his anger out on . . . ."
But Clarise believed that if she left, he'd hurt them. And if she tried
to take them, he'd hurt her. They were his power over her. And he was
killing her with them, with the things he held over her, killing her with
her own inescapable love a little more every day.
Phoebe gave Clarise an 800 number for a national women's resource center,
and suggested that Clarise look through her local phone directory for
the addresses and phone numbers of local women's shelters. And she offered
as much sympathy as she could. She kept her voice upbeat and tried to
find something positive to tell Clarise, but Clarise already knew that
she needed to get out of the house. She knew she needed to take her kids
and run to someplace safe, but she couldn't imagine finding a place where
he couldn't find her.
And I am not the person to tell you that you're wrong for being terrified,
or for staying put.
Phoebe's knee throbbed, a painful reminder that sometimes when a woman
ran, her abuser followed.
When Clarise finally hung up, Phoebe sagged. She didn't want to take
anymore calls. Not for a while, anyway.
She picked up the other phone – her home phone, which wasn't dedicated
to the Psychic Sisters Network – and dialed the number that connected
her to the system. She wanted to log off before another call came in,
and if she was going to get off at all, she needed to do it fast.
" Welcome to the Psychic Network Center," the recorded voice
on the other end said. "You must have a touch-tone phone to interact
with this system. At this time, please enter your ID number."
She punched in 7-2-3-8-8-4 and waited.
The system felt slow to her. Call volume might be high, or maybe a lot
of other people were trying to log on or off at the same time.
" The number you have entered is 7-2-3-8-8-4. If this is correct---"
Phoebe punched 1, cutting a hundredth of a second off of her log-out
time. Her other option would have been 2, had she entered her number incorrectly,
as she sometimes did when she was really exhausted.
Don't ring, she told the Network phone. Don't ring. Don't ring. Just
let me get off the system.
" Now enter your password."
" 9-4-7-7-5-2."
A long pause. Hurry, she thought. Come on. Hurry.
" The number you have entered is 9-4-7-7-5-2. If this is corr--"
She punched 1.
" To hear the daily message, press 1 now. Otherwise--"
She pressed 2. The computerized voice seemed suspended in molasses,
dripping out one word at a time. Another Clarise was going to call, and
Phoebe would have to take the call because she was technically still on
the system. She wouldn't be able to finish her log-off, and she'd have
to try again, and again. She didn't dare refuse calls – if she didn't
answer each call by the second ring while she was logged on, she'd lose
her job.
And she had to have the job.
There was no way to cheat. Every call showed up in the computer log,
as did the numbers clients called from, the length of time they stayed
on the phone, and God only knew what else. Phoebe was supposed to capture
addresses by requesting them and then writing them down, but she suspected
even that was only for legal purposes; the Network could probably have
gotten home information on clients from any of a number of databases,
simply by backtracking the phone numbers. She figured the reason she was
supposed to have the callers give her the information was that, if the
clients gave their addresses to her, the Network had implied consent to
use them.
" The computer shows that you are currently logged on at 1-954-9--"
and droned out her phone number.
I know where I am, she thought. Let me log off.
" To log on--" the final prompt started, and she slammed her
finger against the 2.
" I'm off," she whispered, and waited for the voice that would
confirm this.
Before it could, the Psychic Sisters phone rang.
" You are now logged off the system, and will not be receiving
any further calls until you log on again," the computer voice said.
"If this is correct--"
She pressed 1 and hung up, and the Network phone rang a second time.
"Shit," she whispered. She depressed the headset switch on the
Network phone with a sense of resignation. "Fifty-five . . . minute
. . . YES . . . club," the voice said.
She put the smile back on her face. It would be the last call, anyway.
No more would come through. She said, "Thank you for calling the
Psychic Sisters Network. My name is Ariel, and my extension number is
723884. May I have your name, please?"
She marked in the time the call started, then waited. "Hello? Are
you still there?"
She heard a chuckle. "I thought you were psychic, Phoebe."
That voice. It couldn't be.
" I found you again," he said. "I found you, sweetheart.
You would not believe how far I've had to come . . . but I found you,
just as I promised I would. And now you're going to come back to me. Walking
or crawling -- you're going to come back."
She cut the call off and sat staring at the phone.
It couldn't be him. There was no way. None. But if it was him ---
It can't be him.
Her first impulse, even all these years later, was to call home. To
beg her father to come get her.
Her dad would have been there as fast as humanly possible. He would
have stood between her and the nightmare. But her father, her mother ...
her younger sister Nicki -- a late-night drive through a wild storm, wet
leaves on a winding Ohio back road, and bad brakes in an old car had taken
the three of them away from her forever. Their passing had marked the
beginning of Phoebe's hell.
But she did have another call she had to make.
With shaking hands, Phoebe dialed a number that she'd memorized a long
time ago, a number she had always hoped she would one day forget.
The woman's voice on the other end of the phone was calm and no-nonsense.
"Mercy Cove Total-Care Home, long-term-floor-can-I-help-you,"
she said.
Phoebe shuddered, the memory of all the times she'd heard those words
suddenly sharp and ugly. She looked around her townhouse, at the triple-deadlocked
front door, at the windows screened from the outside world, and she listened
to the emptiness of the place. Just her. Just her -- and that had seemed
safest. Best. Only now it just felt vulnerable again.
" I'm just calling to check on the status of one of your patients.
M-m-michael Schaeffer."
" May I ask who's calling, please?"
" Phoebe Rain." A pause, then the reluctant, "Used to
be Schaeffer."
" Phoebe . . . Schaeffer." The sound of a metal rack rotating,
a heavy thud, a softly muttered imprecation she hadn't been intended to
hear. "Okay. Just a moment please." Phoebe waited some more,
while pages were riffled, while two voices spoke, while – judging
from the sudden silence -- a hand went over the phone mouthpiece. Then
the voice came back on the line, markedly cooler. "I'm sorry. We
only give out information on our patients to family members."
" I'm his ex-wife."
" Yes, ma'am. Your name is not on the list the family approved."
Of course it wouldn't be. Her ex-in-laws would have seen to that.
" It's important," she said quietly. "I just need to
know if his condition has . . . changed."
" I suggest you call his family, Mrs. Schaeffer."
" Rain. Ms. Rain." Either I'm Mrs. Schaeffer and you give
me the information, or I'm Ms. Rain, and you don't, she thought. You don't
get to have it both ways. "He tried to kill me once. I have to know
if he could try to kill me again," Phoebe said, fear adding a note
of hysteria to her voice.
" Ms. Rain, then. Please call his family for information. No matter
what the circumstances, I absolutely cannot give any information to you.
I'm sorry," she said. But she didn't sound sorry.
Phoebe said, "I understand," when what she wanted to do was
scream, "Bitch!" She hung up the phone.
Michael was still at Mercy Cove -- otherwise the woman on the phone
would have simply told her he was no longer a patient. But whether he
could have called her -- whether he might once again be a danger to her
-- that she couldn't tell. That secret lay in the nursing home in Ohio.
She couldn't find out about him as Phoebe Rain, or even as Phoebe Schaeffer.
If she called again, she was likely to be told they couldn't give out
information no matter what name she gave -- she would guess, remembering
her in-laws, that they would have requested notification if she called.
They hated her for what she'd done to their son. They had never believed
a word of what she said he'd done to her. She imagined that they would
use any tool available to them to stand in her way. No way in hell would
one of them tell her how he was doing.
If she had only thought to identify herself as Laine Schaeffer, Michael's
sister, she could have gotten information. Laine and Michael had never
been close, and with Laine all the way out Oregon, they'd had almost no
contact in all the years Phoebe and Michael had been together. But Laine
and Michael hadn't been enemies. Phoebe guessed that Laine would be on
the list to get information, even if it was a privilege she never chose
to use.
Phoebe sat for a moment, staring at the little gray headset phone she
used for the psychic line, thinking. The phone call had come through with
a network prompt. Which meant it had gone through the system.
Which meant the network's computer had logged the originating phone
number.
She smiled slowly. Which meant that whoever had called her, she had
him.
She checked the Network's employee contact line number on her phone
list -- she'd only had to use it once before, when her priority rating
had inexplicably slipped to 89,000-something. A man who called himself
Therian answered.
Phoebe identified herself and said, "Can you do a check on the
last call that came through for me? I need to take the phone number to
the police. The caller used my real name, and . . . threatened me."
Her throat tightened as the pictures flashed through her mind: blood on
the chalkboards, terrified young faces, screaming; blinding pain. She
cleared her throat, got her voice back, said, "I can't afford to
ignore this."
Therian sighed heavily. "It will take me a minute."
" I have all night ... well, morning."
She heard him sigh again before he put her on hold. She found herself
listening to bad, digitized New Age music; she blocked it out by trying
to figure out how the caller had located her. No one except for Ben Margolies
in the New Age shop, who'd recommended her, and the woman at PSN Inc.,
who hired her, and whose name she didn't even know -- whom she had never
even met except for a single phone interview -- knew she worked as a psychic
for the Network. Getting her extension number was simple -- she gave that
out at every call, hoping that her readings would be good enough that
she would develop a clientele of regulars.
But knowing that she was the person on the other end of it -- how could
anyone have discovered that Ariel the psychic was Phoebe Rain? She'd been
careful never to give her real name out. The caller had said he knew where
to find her. Did he? He might. She didn't have any credit cards and all
her mail went to a drop box, and both her home and Psychic Sisters phones
were unpublished unlisted. But her driver's license had her correct address
on it – he might have managed to obtain her address from that. It
still wouldn't explain how he'd reached her through the Psychic Sisters.
They didn't have a directory – the only way a caller could get a
specific reader was to have called her once before and to have copied
down her number. The odds of the man with Michael's voice having gotten
her and having recognized her had to have been right up there with winning
the big prize in the lottery.
But somebody won that, too, didn't they? Sooner or later, someone took
it home.
With the feeling that her luck had run out, she stared at her phone
and waited.
Therian came back on the line. "The last call I have for you is
from Idaho. Our database lists the caller as Clarise. The phone number--"
Phoebe cut him off. "Clarise called at 5:57 AM. I want the one
that called at 6:28 AM."
" The last call I show for you is at 5:57 AM."
Phoebe shook her head. "This came through the system. Fifty-five
minute YES club prompt, I did the opening script, he didn't give me his
name. He used my name, said . . . what he said, I hung up on him. It's
got to be there."
" I'm checking. But I show you logged off at 6:27, so any call
that came through at 6:28 would have been dialed directly into your number."
" I'm telling you, I got the system prompt. And the phone rang
before I finished logging off," Phoebe said, but then she realized
that it hadn't. She'd punched that final 2 that completed her log-off,
and the phone started to ring the instant after that, though before she
got confirmation from the system that she was off. Perhaps she really
had already logged herself off, if only by nanoseconds.
" I'm sorry," Therian said, "but the last call that came
through the system for you was the one from Idaho."
Phoebe sat there for a moment, eyes closed, with her fingers pressed
against her temples.
" Okay, thanks," she said at last.
" Sorry I couldn't help. Why don't you call the phone company and
see if they can look into this for you?"
" I'll do that." She hung up.
She sat staring out her window, wondering how the caller had managed
to get a prompt from the Psychic Sisters Network on his call if he hadn't
called through the 900 number.
It might really be Michael, though she couldn't imagine how that could
be. The last she'd heard of him, he'd still been in a coma. Had been in
a coma for more than a year. She'd stopped keeping track at that point
-- everyone she'd talked to and everything she'd researched insisted that
anyone in a coma for more than a year wouldn't be waking up. Not that
she slept any better at night for knowing that.
It almost had to be someone else; someone who could imitate Michael's
voice and who had reason to hate her. To want to hurt her.
Maybe someone from the school. One of her fellow teachers. Or one of
the parents.
Her skin crawled, and she tasted bitter fear. No matter who had found
her, no matter why he had called her, he was the nightmare she'd been
waiting for -- the one that she'd known in her gut was coming. She looked
at the four walls that surrounded her, at the big window with its drawn
shades, with only the angled glass at the top open to the sky, at the
sliding glass door pinned shut and also shaded. No one could see in, but
suddenly she felt like a bird in a cage with the snake coiled just outside,
studying her through the bars, looking for a way in.
She had to get out.
She rose, hurried, unthinking, and knives tore through her right knee,
pain so white-hot she whimpered and fell back into her seat, tears flooding
her eyes. She grabbed the table with both hands and pulled herself up,
fighting the pain, trying to get on top of it; she grabbed her cane with
a sense of defeat. In the last few months, she'd been making trips without
it. But not this time. The damned leg felt like it might give out at any
moment. Maybe that was just anxiety, which always made her pain worse,
and maybe it wasn't.
She grabbed her purse and her keys and threw open all three deadbolts,
stopping on the other side only long enough to make sure all of them were
locked again. Scared, shaking, unsure of what to do next, she hobbled
down the walk.
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